I Finally Launched My Site. Now What?

After five years of starts, stops, pivots, and perfectionism, TerenceWaters.com is finally live.

It's surreal to type that.

Not because the site is flashy or flawless—but because it's real. It exists. It's no longer a concept floating in my head or a folder buried in my drive. It's a living archive of my work, my philosophy, and the evolution I've been metabolizing behind the scenes.

And yet… the moment I hit "publish," my mind didn't throw a party.

It threw a checklist.

Tiny quirks. Missing blog posts. Portfolio pieces still waiting in the wings.

Because you see, that's how my reactionary life has been: Reactionary. Worried. On survival mode. Never done. Never satisfied. Never good enough. As a result, my nervous system keeps trying to sprint, not celebrate.

That needs to change, and it's why I am working for myself.

You see here's what I'm learning: Completion isn't a finish line—it's a transition.

And transitions are tender.

They don't just start and show a constant way forward. They also show us that accomplishments are always far and true, yet also never what they seem.

I used to religiously watch Once Upon a Time which talks about this very thing. In it, Snow White gives the understanding that there never is an "end end " to life. There's always togetherness. Love. Acceptance. Tolerance. And the next chapter to unfold, even in death.

So today, I'm choosing to sit with the discomfort and endless checklists.

To honor and relish in the fact that I launched something that took five years of inner and outer work!

To let the joy in, even if it feels unfamiliar.

To cry, too... because I'm making self-employment work for me! That... more than anything else... showed me I have the courage to take what I am making and truly make it something of my own.

This site isn't just a digital portfolio: It's a declaration. I'm here. I'm building. I'm becoming.

If you're reading this, thank you for witnessing the beginning.

There's more to come—but for now, I'm letting myself smile. Because it's not just for you, my wonderful support... it's for me, too. And the next chapter is just on the next page. 😊